MOVING FORWARD...

 

For a while now, I have been hiding from myself, not wanting to be found. The months rolled by with me watching, too lazy to care enough to pick Dee up from the shackles of self pity that held her in serious captivity. I had even diagnosed and re-diagnosed myself with medical conditions to aid the laziness. I had gone from Adjustment disorder when the feeling became too prolonged to Post traumatic stress disorder and Bipolar disorder with just the depressive episode and recently, I was only too happy to diagnose myself with Premature mid life crisis. I told Eljay my diagnosis and she went, "oh please. You just don't want to boil rice that's why you are coming up with this excuse. Abeg go jor". I also started thinking possible Schizophrenia and started waiting on the delusions and hallucinations to begin. Plus no!!! It had absolutely nothing to do with a particular episode of criminal minds I saw.

A PEEK INTO DEE'Z RANDOM DRAMA LIFE...

So today,I had the opportunity to take free chocolates,you know those ones with gold shiny wrap,shaped like a coin.Well,I was to take a few but greed took the better part of me and I took alot after which,I started feeling guilty and I started watching my back,looking over my shoulder,I could not help thinking some one was going to dial 911 and I was going to get arrested and go to prison then get a criminal record and my career would be ruined and no one would want me,not even my family, then I would probably have a nervous break down which would speed up the maturation of the part of my brain that is crazy then I would develop acute onset psychosis which would not be treated, then it would develop into schizophreniform disorder then schizophrenia then be killed or die from extreme cold because no one would want to help me and my bright future would come to an end without marriage,kids,grand kids(you know the whole package).